Today I should be reading, and writing, something else than this post. But in any case, to get the writing flowing is already something. I just to get the other things out of my mind right now.
The first is the flat refurnishing project that caught a hiccup or two. In the stress of finishing up before closing time, we managed to pick up the wrong key pieces from the shop. Conclusion: living with half of our clothes in suitcases, and having to come back to the shop to return the wrong parts and (hopefully) pick up the right ones.
The second is the fact that teaching is creeping back into my life sooner than I thought it would be. I know I have to put the idea aside and focus on what I have in front of me now, but the thought that I have to start preparing materials and projects for a class I will co-teach starting mid April keeps getting in the way.
The third is the fact that not only I am going to start teaching a language next semester, I am also going to 'co-teach' a dance group. And THAT also requires some planning and creative ideas, especially since me myself need a refreshing training on the dances. And that a show awaits us on an undetermined date in June. We, my co-instructor and I, would need to figure out the costume and figure out a way to create fun but efficient workshop sessions, so that we are 'bühnereif' in less than 10 weeks. Oh la la...
The fourth is a new information, or probably I should call it a 'wake up call', that the language class would need to produce something to present on the same stage as the dance group, in less than 10 (academic) weeks. And I know I will face some resistance from some people with my ideas for the show. We'll see how far we will get.
I should be a part of organizing party of an event, but sometimes I am wondering, whether I really am too old to deal with youthful ego and ambition. I sometimes have a feeling that some people lose their eyesight on what the event was suppose to mean, and who we wanted to reach with this event, and how much MONEY we have, and what is realistically achievable with what we have. That instead of trying to prove how great we could be, and the various stuffs we could have done to prove how awesome we are, we should sometimes focus on how we do the things we can do awesomely. Every time something popped up, and I chose to bite my tongue, I got so worked up anyway that I couldn't stop thinking about it, though I know that debating, with my lousy German at that, is out of the question. I guess I just have to trust that they know what they are doing, and simply put my energy in 'defending' my own decisions, I know I would need to do that.
Take a deep breath, concentrate, and choose your battle. Choose your battle. Reminder to self.
Today is sunny, yay!!!! Cold but sunny, a good day to write :)
Frankfurt, March 27, 2013.
